Was It an End?
3yrs down the road. Our relationship have gone thru so many up and downs. I dunno izzit that we drag on for so long or are we really in it for so long. I used to have faith in this r/s and i also used to lost trust in it. Honestly speaking, i had never betray u nor this r/s before. So how is this road going to be like...
For minor thing, we've quarreled. Ended up minor problem became a major problem which ended up in this current situation. In my job, I used to solve and help other ppl problem and when it come to myself, i felt so helpless . Maybe we had plan so far. 3 yrs seems so near and yet so far. All that I want is just a peaceful r/s whereby we will talk when I'm working and we will be together when i had my off day. I know we had been doing that for the past few months and i really do enjoy it. Maybe I'm really not a good BF. I'm really really very tired to guess the mood of yours, whenever you are in a bad mood i will had to be careful, any small mistake make by me could just cuz you to be angry the whole day. I do had my flaws too. I know I'm lazy whereby I wun always accompany you go where you wan to go . I agree with you that i dun have a good temper too.
Since that time those thing happen(Extra large), you had change which really totally melt my heart. I found out that i had once again love you for the 2nd time. I dun mind you to blame me for always suspecting you this and that. Cuz I'm really afraid to face it again.I really wish that I can share your burden and work, but sometime i really can't help you at all. I feel that in this r/s i have been afraid of this and afraid of that. Of cuz, you had been good to me all along too. I'm very touch whenever you free you will come down to look for me and accompany me. Remember that day when I'm sleeping you hold on to my hand. That feeling, I really can't explain but you gave me a feeling that you never want to let go. I must admit here that what i did to you was wrong. But everything really do have their limit. I felt that i had reached my limit that I turn into such an evil. I'm sorry for that but i really hate to see your evil side appear too.
I wun listen to anyone advice. Cuz i know what I'm doing . Maybe I should just be brave and walk down this lonely street . Suddenly i felt so lost of words. Maybe i shall continue tml. Is this the end of everything..??
``Life is only worth living once
you've found someone worth dying for ``
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