Feel like thrashing everything out..
I might juz be at the lowest downturn of my life..
I might not be who i am...
I might be giving up everything..
This 2 days I have been reading letters from the past. I felt that I have really wasted many chance, I have hurt so many innocent. All this while all that i had done , was it right or wrong? Am I hurting another girl or does she really felt that I'm good to her. I found out that I lost one very impt letter. I only remember inside it wrote " Do you know what is love? Its not by saying I love you means you really love her.." This letter had been with me for so long and only now than I realise that this letter exist. I just happen to found it one day when I was re-packing my drawer. Its from one of my ex-Gf . I remember that time I broke off with her cuz of the other girl. This incident had made me felt so guilty till now. I learned. I progress. I realized once over everything will be gone in split seconds.
I once had a very good uncle. He teach me how to swim . I will always rmb he is the one who pushes me into the deep water and ask me to swim up myself but i failed and he rescue me. Teaches me how to sing . Teaches me card trick . Use to make fun of me when i was young. Use to bring me out . He doesn't have a good marriage, doesn't have a good life. Even if he's broke, during chinese new year he still make it a point to give everyone Ang Bao. It has been years since he left us. He was caught in an accident while on his way home. Cuz he has been taking on two job at once. Due to fatigue, he drove home on his bike. Could be he fell asleep while driving and went on to mount the curb and cause it to be fatal. Remember the last time was just the day before the accident when i met him. He came to my parents fruit stall, gave a massage chair to my dad as my dad had a fall. He talk to me, asking me how many pull up I can do. He say he will challenge me one day. But now.. I think i got no chance to challenge him anymore. I got many things i feel like telling him. I feel like telling him that i'm doing fine.. I'm serving my NS now.. He used to be very brave and active. He used to stand up for friends. Uncle, I'm wondering where are you? sometime i really hope you will come into my dream and tell me how you had been. I had many things which i might need your advice on. He is only 40 when he pass on. All i hope now is that you are well in heaven. We will never know what might happen tml. You might just lose someone you love , so I will treasure every moment of my life.
We are often most touched by those who show courage and strength beyond their own infirmity. And their death is not an end to that courage.When death takes someone from us, we have to say goodbye. Even if it's only within our own minds.We rarely expect tragedy, and are never really prepared for it.Saying "goodbye" is often another way of saying "I remember."
I will be strong.... I will...
``Life is only worth living once
you've found someone worth dying for ``
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