Pig Pig

2009-09-08T23:30:00.002+08:00

IS It Love or is it NOT!?

So how does we define love?

- Is it a deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.

- Is it when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at him/her because you know it would hurt his/her feelings?

Today my story is not about myself. It about someone who stood so close to me and share all my troubles and problem throughout my 10years of knowing him. Many people have so many different view of the word "LOVE" . To me, i feel that my love have blossom. I had a good girlfriend. Good days. Good life. Some might say "Wow, you are a lucky chap" . Well all i can say is "Thank you" .

Sometime when people say LOVE is a powerful word, do you believe? I don't at first but now i got to accept and believe .

Dear Friend,

We have been such a good brother and buddy for ten long years, in the past we used to share our problems and happiness together. But now, things have really change. You keep saying that you are very stress, vex , useless , helpless and sad. So you think that the rest of us are feeling happy seeing you in this state. Its not easy to maintain such a long friendship like we did, we are all trying to help you. Do you know how sad are we when we see that you are going to give up on us for a girl you only known for a few months. As a friend for 10 years:

-WE can't call you when you are with her.

-WE can't meet you only when she nod her head and agree to let you out.

So is this your so call "HAPPINESS?"

-Scold you by pointing fingers at you while infront of your family and friends.

-Ordering you to do things like she's the boss .

-When she called you, you are so afraid till you must immediately pick up the call.

-When she's in a foul mood, she can scold you whatever she like.

-You must do thing her way , her style.

So is this what you called "LOVE". I'm really wondering , what did she do to you to make you so afraid of her and let you give up on us. Why do we gather at late nights to talk to you about this issue? Some of us still need to work and we don't mind staying till 3 to 4am and waking up at 6am. WHY ? WHY? WHY? cuz we never ever given up hope on you. We want you to step up of the "hole" . But you just don't listen to us. When you say "Can you all give me a break". My heart sank. So this is how you treat us because of her? There's a line to everything and i really feel that she had cross that line. There's always a limit to everything, you keep saying" Tolerate than very fast over one la. Just give in to her can le. Let her scold , its ok" So you are telling me you are planning to let this goes on for years??? Do you know you are actually hurting alot of people around you. No matter where the rest of us go. When we meet out, we always discuss on how to help you? how to make you understand? Love isn't this way. Happiness doesn't sound this way either. Lastly, i would like to say. Although it may sound bad but i still have to say. LEAVE HER FOR GOOD. No matter how the road looks like after that, we will always be there for you. If you feel like crying, we will cry with you. No matter how many obstacles we need to bring you through. I can promise you that we will follow you till you see that shinning light. I really pray and wish that you will heed our advice. Please , its time to come back.

Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.

Those who do not know how to weep with their whole heart do not know how to laugh either.

Best Regards

Eng Koon

Dear Ms Sweety Dear,

I just want to say, I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!

HELL YEAH!!! Just hope to see you soon!!!

A part of you has grown in me. And so you see, it's you and me together
forever and never apart, maybe in distance, but never in heart.

Yours dearest

MR ONG E K

2009-05-08T20:39:00.003+08:00

Start Of Poly Life.. End Of NS Life

This is the 3rd week of my poly life; I'm currently in the course of Property Development And Facilities Management. People keep saying that for the first few week of poly life it will be kinda relaxing but to me, what i hear and what is happening is totally different. For my 1st week in school, there is already project and assignments to do and for 2nd week, there’s already a presentation to be done. So do you call this 'relax'? After about 2 yrs of NS, I'm like a distant away from books. It’s time for me to get my mentality back. Assignment, Project, Presentation, Test, Exam,,etc... Bring it on!! lolx.. Tomorrow I will officially de-kit from my NPC. This means I have ORD!!!!Finally after about 2 yrs. Its over. Kinda have a mixed feeling about it. Happy to have finally ORD. Sad that I'll be leaving my that bunch of fun colleagues. Thanks to them, I'm able to learn and experiment a lot of things. Here I would like to thank them individually:

Zulkefeli- Thanks for all the tolerant and patience you had shown towards me. Thanks for always giving in to me at times.

Chua G K- Thanks for teaching me and guiding me along in the team. I would also like to thank you for taking care of me in the team. Fun learning table tennis, bowling with you.

Alvin- Though i know you only for a few months but you have been a very good and understanding leader in my impression. Thanks for always being there to help me when I have any difficulties.

Zuraine-Always remember that the first day I came to work, I have already make you so angry. Time flies; wish you all the best sister! Good Luck and all the best. Take good care of the new SCs ok.

Lim P K- Seldom do with you, the first impression you give me was that you was like very fierce. Haha. Till I don’t even dare to talk to you when we first patrol together. But seriously you have been a good team member. Thanks for your guidance throughout my NS there.

Desmond Lee- The coughing man. Always rmb that you always like to sing in the car(like andy lau voice) than when my head start to fall. You will say “Want to slp than slp la *cough*” You are the first one I patrol with. I can say you are a very experience PO. I always look up upon you. Too bad, you have left the team. But I think it’s good for you too. All the best in the future. Rmb to call me for mah-jong and bowling. *cough*

Shariel- The die-hard Liverpool fans who always like to tease about my Newcastle. It had been a learning experience everytime I patrol with you. Seen alot of things while patrolling with ya. Though dangerous too at times when it comes to night time.lolx. Take care Shariel!! Newcastle rox!!

Rashiddin- My FTO! Always rmb the first day we patrol together. Teaches me this and that. From wearing seatbelt in car and always want me to learn by right and not left. Always talk about your EVO. Haha. Time flies; the tiger and cub partnership has come to its end but I hope you this tiger still continue to work hard and fight crimes. All the way Tiger!

Izuan- When talk about your name, I’ll always think of Tao Ching Rd. Thats the place when I first patrol with you that we go and you teach me on how to write my logsheet. Till now the sample is still with me. Always talk about relationship and stuffs. Take care Mr $2 man. Hehex.

Kensyn Tan- Out of my 1 yrs plus in NPC , I only did once with ya. Always rmb that I was spit saliva and you kept avoiding. That was fun. Really miss all the fun that we used to have. Now you have ORD with me. Leaving Fazly behind. Haha. Mr Rhino aka Hamster. A guy who like to mimic others and did very well in it.

Munirah- Though you only join our team for not long. I did patrol once with ya. You have a sense of responsibility and will always look after your partner. All the best!

Benedict Ng- We always go to work together and go back together. Sounds like gay but we are not, its just that we stay near to each other. Dun be afraid in handling cases. Be more confident.

Jean Guk- The miss blur queen in our team. But she’s one tough girl. Always fight for what she feel right. I always rmb the incident when you can’t find a I/C when its just below the keyboard and you came back to tell me you find thoroughly already. Lolx. No worries I will be turning up for your wedding. Take care in Team B.

Fazly- The most playful guy among all. He and his UFC. Always bright up the team with his music and nonsense. Nice knowing you and thanks for always helping me in all sorts of ways. I know one day we will still meet out. Though me and kensyn have left. We will still be supporting you! JIWA!

Makthum- Same age as me. A quiet guy but one who share the same goal as us cuz we all dun like the same one person =x. Happy for you that you had left the team. Hope you will be able to make it permanent. Work hard mak! Good luck.

Thanks Ryan and Azli for always covering up my job. The rest who I had not mention. Thanks alot too for everything too. Very lazy to type already after typing so long. Missing everyone!

.:. Sorry Cindy, no photo to upload yet. Do take care of urself at there too. Remember to miss all of us. Waiting to see your face turn red again(drunk). =p

2009-02-02T01:08:00.004+08:00

1 mth Celebration

Today was the 1st special day of our relationship. So i decided to take one day leave for this special day. Waited at home whole day for dear to finish her lesson. So met dear at around 1730hrs when she came over and fetch me (sweet!~) . Actually we plan to go to Jumbo for this celebration but my dear is having a bad sore throat.(Poor things.. ) So in the end we decided to go to Kushing-Bo at Jurong Point. Its a nice and pleasant outing. So happy just to have dear by my side. Well we do have fun down there. When the first music starts playing, we were like "U go queue up ar. No u GO! . NO nO u go u go.. " In the end Its me who go but fail to get the crayfish. Sad. Sorry dear. Than when i go to the washing area. I wanted to tap on the soap however I realise that it is a sensor automated thing. Than the uncle who was beside me 'Monkey see Monkey do' Follow what I do and press very hard on the soup and nothing came out. haha. =X umm.. My dear ar.. I peel the prawn for her than place on the plate nicely and yet she dun want to eat. Than tell the waiter to clear the plate. So hurts but nv blame her at all. YEAH!! I WROTE IT HERE! Than when i went to take the ice cream for her, i thought that there was no mixture of the flavour(Green Tea & Vanilla) so i only took the vanilla one for her. In the end the family sitting beside us got a mixture one.. hehe.. Sorry again. After that we went to my 3rd uncle place for CNY visit. Went home at 2205hrs.

Dear I just wan to say I miss you. Like getting used to have you by my side all the while. One day nv see you really make my day very low. I know its hard to meet everyday. But all I hope for is when I'm having my off . I'll be able to meet you. Whenever I had the chance to meet ya. I will be looking forward to it. I'll make myself sleep early so as the day and time will pass faster. Write so long le also dunno what i'm writing already.Last but not least Happy 1 month Anniversary to my only dear dear. I'll continue and increase my love for ya. Sweets MuaCks~!

Little poem for our 1 mth anni:

How can I say what is too much for words?

A rainbow cannot fit into my heart.

Perhaps we should be musical as birds

Perched singing of our love with practiced art.

You cannot taste my happiness, or feel

A little of the chill of your caress.

No word or metaphor can make it real,

Nor song contain the truth I would express.

In my love there are mountains miles high,

Valleys rainbow carpeted, and wide

Enough for clear, still lakes to steal the sky ...

R-R-R-R!!! I cannot tell you what's inside!

So you must turn to what you feel for me,

And read therein my tender rhapsody.

Reach deep, my love, and I will be there, too:

You have me in your heart, as I have you.

2009-02-01T00:33:00.002+08:00

~Happy 1 mth anniversary~

Firstly shall wish everyone a happy chinese new year. In this year of ox. Wish that everyone will be successful in everything they do. Heard that 'tiger' is quite good this year. well i'm looking foward to it too. lolx.

Secondly, Wish my only dear dear a happy one month anniversary. Its like so long together and yet its only 1 month. haha. My wish for our one month will be as follows:

1) Maintain the relationship like how we are now

2) Dear must be healthy for a lifetime

3) No quarrels or dispute

4) Dear will always be mine

My Promises for this one months will be as follows:

1) Will love dear more than she love me

2) Will take good care of her all the while

3) Nv hurt or break her heart in any ways

4) Protect her from all sorts of danger

Dear.. thanks for showering ur care and love on me all this while. I will treasure you alot. Love you my one and only lovely dear bao bao... muacks~

2009-01-17T02:38:00.002+08:00

Red Cliff 2

Just got back home after watching 'red cliff 2' with dear at Jurong Point. Pretty nice . If I were to rate think I'll rate it (8/10).

Well dear. How much you want to see me its the same as how much I want to meet you. Dun worry its not your fault in asking me out tonight. Part of it got to do with me too. Cuz I wan to meet you too. Thanks for being so considerate and thoughtful all the time. You have been giving in to me and had been very caring towards me.

Maybe its just fate, everytime when plans come, I'll be on night shift. SIGH!!~. Of cuz I'm not unhappy at u turning up for that gathering. I'm just unhappy that why izzit that I'm the one who always can't attend for all this kind of occasion. Like friends gathering and sorts. Think I'm going to miss alot yet AGAIN. sigh. Maybe its just not my week!~

Just feel like meeting you everyday. Maybe thats part of the reason on why I'm unhappy about all this. Cuz I feel that i can't be with you to enjoy this outing. Its very sad. But dun worry . I'll be fine one =D . Just feel that I'm so attracted to you. Am I being very selfish? Dun ever feel bad or blame yourself. Its never your fault~! ok. Love you..

ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =(

2009-01-13T12:42:00.003+08:00

KL Trip

Just return back from KL for 2 days now. Yesterday spend whole day working so no time to blog. So here it goes....

We left our homeland at around 4pm and I was pretty excited abt it. Than hop on the FIVE STARS bus and head to KL. My chair was ok but dear chair was =x(couldn't adjust the seats at all) But when watching movie. My set was =x(Couldn't even switch on) . lolx. So the journey was abt 5hrs. Reach there around 9pm. Got off the bus and people there start asking you "You want taxi?" . We didn't took their offer and so we walk to our hotel. It took us quite some time before we located our hotel which is call "Corona Inn" Thanks to chermain sharp eyes if not we will be passing by it without even noticing it. So check in and put our stuff inside our room and meet up straight for dinner. Food there was nice and cheap. After that we just walk around and I bought a Snoppy for dear which i was so stupid enough not to slash the price and just pay the exact amount =(. We than each bought one flowers and gave it to the girls. After that we bought beer to our hotel to celebrate our first trip together overseas. So we bought 10 Carlsberg at around RM99. After that went back to our hotel. After bathing we started to drink and we finish 10 bottle in like less than 2hrs? I think i drank the most (5 bottles?) Thanks to DEAR! lolx. After that ah boon eat my tofu. HAIZ! Slept around 4am.

2nd Day:

Woke up like 10 am. Head still abit giddy. Meet up everyone and we went to find our place for breakfast. Wanna find a shop selling Bak Ku teh but in the end could't find it after like 1 hr. So we settle ourself by having our Breakfast cum lunch at U cafe located near to the Sungei Wang. I was pretty quiet thruout cuz "I'm Tired" haha.After that we went to Sungei Wang for shopping. Good for the girls~We went for fish therapy (1st time worx) and it was kind of itchy. Cindy dun dare to put his leg in as she dun like the feeling of itchy. The fish was quite big and so we all were comparing who got the most fish. lolx. Thanks to Chermain and Si Song help me spot one snoppy keychain which i eventually bought for dear and surprise her. Thanks!Than Poor Si song got himself a headache and so we head back to our hotel at around 5.30pm. Relieve for me too cuz i was pretty tired after a long day of walk. So we rest till 7pm and than meet up for dinner . Actually Wanna go have COCA at the KL Plaza but in the end walk till there than notice that its under renovation. So we head straight to chinatown by taking their monorails and had our dinner there. Forgot the shop name but they are famous for their Fu Jian Mian. We tried few of their dish and we felt that the worst dishes is the Fu jian Mian.=x. lolx. So walk around at chinatown and bought lots of shirts there. SLASH SLASH SLASH . From 1 for RM55 can become 2 for RM30. lolx. We r good bargainer. World is so small that i'm able to meet Yazid and rest of Team'D' HQ ppl there. Was like kinda shock when someone called me there. lolx. So after finish our shopping we walk back to our hotel and took lots of photos which is still with chermain . Got back to our hotel at ard 2am and play cards. Slept ard 4am again .

3rd Day:

Woke up ard 10 am and pack our stuff. I was like squeezing everything inside dears bag as mine is like kinda small. lolx. So we went to have our breakfast at one Hong Kong Cafe and we order alot of things which we can't finish eventually. After that we went to chinatown again as si song wanted to buy shoes. Got myself a pair of sunglasses and and belts . It was a hard fight than we got a bargain. haha. The girls also got themselves some clothings. =). Soon after that we went to wait for our bus and left KL at ard 4.10pm. Reach S'pore at ard 8.45pm . Than we used the automated system at the custom. I was like being held back by one staff than my mind was like thinking " Oh shit wat happen? " In the end its because of the fingerprint which was not captured properly. PHEW~! So the bus drop us at Boon Lay Market and we had Nasi Lemak there. After that me and dear bought things back to my place first and give out the presents. Very sorry to mummy as i bought for everyone except her~Sorry. Cuz really dunno wat to buy. Everytime buy le than she nv use or dun wan it one. After that sent dear back home and had a first meeting with her mummy. Abit nervous. Dunno whether got give her any bad impression. Dear say no. So thinks No ba..haha.. So that comes to the end of our 3 days 2 night KL Trip.

P.S:Think i sure left out something which i didn't write in. Can't rmb everything there. So Roughly ar.. sorry =D

2009-01-05T11:43:00.002+08:00

First Blog in 2009

So this will be my first blog in 2009.

A new year. A new start. Have already put down everything that had happen in 2008. By seeing CGK leave our team. Than Rizaliah leave next. Now Desmond is leaving today. The team is like breaking up. Pretty sad. Miss those time when we work together and solve thing together. Wanna thanks CGK and all for their guidance that enable me to get promoted. Though we can't work hand in hand anymore. But we still can meet up. Right!~

Poly admission is just round the corner, gonna be busy this week and I'll be leaving S'pore this friday to KL. Will be back on Sunday. Dunno which course to enter, my mind now is all abt CNY. lolx.. Ang Bao.. =P

countdown to meet u in 3 days time.

will our stories be like fairytales..

be my angel in my life ok...

miss u so much....

2008-12-10T09:58:00.002+08:00

Short and Sweet

I just want to say at this time while you are working. I'm home. I'm always waiting for your call. I hope if you got anything bothering you, you must let me know ok. I'm lost of words but just to say I really miss you girl~! =)

2008-12-08T13:33:00.002+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday to Wei Shan

Yesterday went out to chevron. I was like rushing from work than back home to wash up and took a cab down. And yet i'm still later than her. 3rd time. YA I RMB! haha. Cuz she last min cheated! Upon reaching didn't even know that she had went in WITHOUT me and I'm like searching for her and in the end call her up and noted that she's already inside. Thanks! =P Ya poor thing too ar, she need to carry so many bags up and when she enter people only take note of the bag and not her. ops. =x .So soon after I went in and join the group! At first, I thought today they were going to drink but in the end they said that they had already drink on Sat so ~ Nvm in the end still get to drink some beer. Anyway we gave a surprise to wei shan by buying a cake for her. She was like, at a glance. "Was it for me?" lolz. WELL ITS FOR YOU! Hope you do enjoy the outings . Hope zhi wei and I had given you a wonderful night. lolx. Most dissapointing part is when Zw and Cin didn't work out as I had plan (-200%) PUKE! So we went off ard 1.30am and went for a late supper at Bt Batok. So after that send Ws and her back. Reach home around 3am. Slept ard 3.45am. should be ar.

Today, woke up and chat chat chat. And notice that someone phone can only last for 1hr 46min and will auto cut off the line.lolx. Well we chat on many issue. Family, Work, Friends and so on. After that went for a bath and had breakfast. While I was having my breakfast. I think back on what we had chat and was like talking to my mum so it was like:

Koon : Ma! Do you think I should take a private Dip after my NS?

Mum(Mopping the floor) : You want to waste money again ar! Later fail again!

Koon : But i think hohx, Poly need 3 long yrs to complete the course lehx. By the time i will be like...

Mum(Still mopping) : I dun understand you all la. Study so much in the end, the things that u all study isn't the job that you all r working as!

Koon : But Ma..

Mum(Shout) : I dunno you all la. Dun talk to me all this when i'm doing my housechores la!!! I'm tired!

Koon : But you are my only Mum ar. So must ask for your advice.

Mum : Just learn to save money, some degree holder come out till now also still jobless right. Dun think i got alot of money ok!

Koon : Haiz..

Mum(Still mopping) : Haiya. All is fated de ar. Why think so much. Be more hardworking can le . Dun always think of striking rich!

Koon: Yes Ma!

and it goes on...

Since I'm in this job, I have seen many things. Up and downs of life and faces. OK ! I will follow my heart!

I will study hard de..

I believe love is between two, no matter wats the status, how other's might think, i believe as long as we can find happiness, love might be just perfect.

No matter what have happen in the past. Its all history. Dun becuz of a rotten apple. You wear a colour specs to see on other apple .

This path might be rough. steep . I know its nv easy, But i will move on and walk down. Will you be there waiting for me?

Will you hold on to me and pick me up when i fall?

Last but not least.. $10. $10 . $10 . lolx.

2008-12-04T12:02:00.003+08:00

I'm happy..

Finally, you have decided to move on. I know everything will be very hard at the beggining. I can feel you. I know how u felt. Really. I believe you can do it! I'm happy for you too. I hope you can find your xin fu too. Dun stop at this moment. Walk on this journey of yours happily. I don't want to talk too much. But frank, I'm very happy with what you had sms me. Study hard ok. Really wish the next time if we were to meet will be a happy outing. I hope that we are still friends! Good luck girl~ Take good care!

2008-12-02T11:01:00.003+08:00

Sad Day~!

Just got back home from HTA(Home Team Academy). Today woke up at 0650hrs and went there for my 5th attempt IPPT. Result:

Sit-Up : 40 (GOLD)

Standing BJ : 234 (GOLD)

Pull-Up : 9 (SILVER)

S. Run : 9.8 sec (GOLD)

2.4km : 12.55 min (FAILED)

Overall : FAILED

I have been trying my best at every station. Before my 2.4km i told wei hao. Yesterday someone told me i can sure do it one. Ask me to do my best and told him i wun dissapointed _. However, I failed again . Got to go there next month to re-take every bloody station again. To be frank I'm quite pissed off with myself. Keep asking myself why i just can't goes on without stopping. I saw ppl running pass me and they clocked 10 min plus for 6 rounds. ME??? Can't i just do the same. I dun like to fail. Ya anyway who like it? I'm tired, really very tired. I keep reproaching myself. I didn't went for training whenever i'm free. So does this call give it your best? From today on. I want to write this here. I will train every week . No matter how tired i am. I'm determine to pass on my next attempt. I will go for jog, swim , cycling. Wateva it is. I'm sorry but i'm really moodless today to do anything. SICK AND TIRED OF IPPT!

2008-12-01T01:17:00.000+08:00

Outing

Today went to Plaza Singapura with pandaress. lolx. Went to catch a movie " Beverly Hills Chiwawa". Its kinda cute and part of it is pretty funny and entertaining. Think next movie will be "Bedtime Story" . Saw the trailer earlier. Even trailer make my smile remain . Just hope I didn't bored ya. After that we went to orchard. Walk around looking for christmas present. In the end . We went home empty hand. lolx. And no matter wat it is, I will be called "old uncle". Than went off at ard 1800hrs. Than meet up again at 2000hrs. Cuz of classes. Than after that went to Bukit Timah and met up with Si song and co. Had our dinner there. And went home ard 2210hrs. In the end of the day. I got summon by whosoeva!!!! Lucky got put coupon so its only $6. Anyway whoever knows me will know that i'm road idiot. So you are not too late to know. Lolx. I'll get lost easily but in the end will be still able to get home de.! No worries.

Tml having IPPT must rest le.. JIA YOU!

"It's so easy, To think about Love, To Talk about Love, To wish for Love, But it's not always easy, To recognize Love, Even when we hold it.... In our hands."

"From every human being there rises a light that reaches straight to heaven. And when two souls that are destined to be together find each other, their streams of light flow together, and a single brighter light goes forth from their united being."

2008-11-27T11:30:00.001+08:00

Why??

19th day

I just want to share this with all my friends out there. Thanks for all your care and concern. I really appreciate it alot. I have move on with my life. However, she have not. She has been forcing me to patch back . I told her that love can't be force however she is ignoring my advice. I wan her to know. It doesn't really need to have faults than we could break off. If you really think that there is a need than you can put all the blame on me. Really. I really wish we can move on. If you were to ask me are we still friends? I would gladly say yes we are still friend. I hope you will understand one day. We dunno the future. Yes you are right. But I know what I wan now. I dun wan to think way far out. Take care.

Pls stop forcing me to do thing which i do not like to do...

Pls stop all this and carry on with your life..

Pls stop behaving in such a manner which may let me hate you..

I'm hoping that my next blog will be a happy one instead of all this complains..

I have move on with my life and I'm very happy wih my current life..

I have totally changed..

Take care....

2008-11-16T18:33:00.003+08:00

Lets move on ok~

8th day

Why must you keep forcing me? I want to move on, I'm sorry to say but i'm really enjoying my life now. We can still be friend. Stop doing things that I hate to see . I dun want like I'm enjoying here and you are there hurting yourself. Break up is for out own good. Trust me! Many things once done cannot be undone, I believe that there are guys who want to be with you too. Dun waste your time and youth on me anymore. Lets part and move on ok. Right now i just wan to concentrate on my work and family.

It take time to heals. But you are not giving yourself time to get over it. Everyday you keep thinking of getting back. I know you feel that i dun know how hurt you are. But I tell you I know. But I cannot because that you hurt than i get back with you . understand~ Love talks about feelings. Many things for 3 years we still can't get to know about each other. You feel that my temper is really very bad. I'm sorry ok. Can we just move on ??

P.S : Sorry Ivy and Vivi for always asking you to help in this r/s. But i think only you two can talk to her.

2008-11-12T12:52:00.009+08:00

Lack of sleep...

4th day...
Alright first of all, Thanks Desmond , CGK , Ryan , Benedict , Kensyn , Jean and Kelvin for accompany me the whole night yesterday. Especially CGK and Kensyn who came even they had not enough sleep.

Well yesterday, the whole group of us went to labyrinth at middle road. We meet at 10pm but in the end all arrived at around 11 plus . Me , Des, Ryan and Ben shared a cab down and just nice we arrived the same time as jean and her bf. We open 2 bottle of 'Hennessy' but couldn't finished it. Think we will be going there soon as we still have 3/4 of drink there. Those are what we call friend. Whenever you need them, they will be there for you. Not like some, when they need you they look for you but vice versa when you need them they wouldn't even bother about you.~ CGK didn't sing as he say he don't like to sing infront of so many ppl. lolx. In fact me myself also just get to sing one song. Think Ben drink quite alot. Slightly more than me. haha. Advice given to me was to 'cheer up, be happy' . In facts, they are a bunch of clever ppl. I didn't even tell them what had happen and yet they guessed it totally correct. Think cuz they saw me as not my usual self and why i didn't use my phone frequently. After that we left at around 2.45am and Jean and Kelvin went home, the rest of us went on to Adam Road market to have a late supper. I had the indian mee goreng which i feel that its a pepper mee goreng as the whole food make you feel like eating the pepper all the while. SO SPICY.CGK say wanna share with me but in the end he only had one mouth. lolx. Than we chat about those horror movie and those torturing stuff. FREAK!! After that we went separate way to home and i reached home around 4.20am.

Get to slp awhile and my mum wake me up at 8am as I need to go for my medical appointment. So went to AH and reach there around 9.30am. I'm quite lucky today as the whole thing ended quite fast. The doctor just prescribe me a stronger cream for my foot and make another appointment for me on the 6th of January to see if there is any improvement before he come to a conclusion. Than wen to the pharmacy to take my medicine and met kai ling(Ken Boon Sister) there. She's working there but when she saw me , she can't even reconize me . When I go approached her she still can ask me "you are..??" Than I told her than she say why you change till like that ( Doesn't know wat she meant!!LOLX) But in the end thanks to her, she gave me a staff price as my cream doesn't cover in the 11B as it is a retail item and i got to pay myself. So thanks ya kai ling!! . After that went to maxwell road to had breakfast with my parents and grandparents. And went home sweet home after that. And that is where i am now....

Thanks for all that you had given me..

When I saw that socks you bought ..

Thanks for all your care and concern..

But maybe we are just not meant for each other..

Maybe its abit to late to found out..

But trust me, we didb't break up cuz of other girl..

I just feel that we always can't come to an agreement over things..

I dare not think of the future..

But I will wish you well..

Actually today will be the 35th month..

But since its over so lets not brood over it..

Take good care..

Be Strong..

....

I remember a type of quote people used to say

But I never really understood it 'til today

Life will only get harder from here

I think about that almost every time I shed a tear

I look back on the happy years I once had

And I wish for them to come back Oh so bad

Pressure is a big part of teenage lives today

Temptations of sex, drugs, and violence never seem to go away

You never really know which road to choose

It seems which ever way you go, your bound to lose

Happiness eventually falls on your lap

Only to look once more and see it gone in a snap

Why does it seem I can't smile like before?

As if the joyous part of me walked right out the door

I guess my feelings are personal to me and I'm too embarrassed to show 'em

One day I'll find happiness again

I just have to live my life until then

And while I'm waiting just for that

I think I'll give myself a pat on the back

'Cuz I've come this far without giving up completely

I'm trying to enjoy life, it's very difficult, believe me

I guess that's the message I'm trying to send out

To keep your head up when giving up is what your thinkin 'bout

Take life's punches right in the face

And you'll see things will come to you at there own pace

Kelvin and Desmond

Jean, Kelvin , Desmond and Ryan

Ryan and Benedict

Jean, CGK and Kensyn

Ryan, CGK and Kensyn

2008-11-11T11:24:00.002+08:00

Special Thanks..

3rd day ...

Seems like i have blogging almost everyday now, dunno why just feel like writing everything out. But this blog will be a short one. At time i really feel weird, am i able to get over it. She used to call me almost everyday. But now, my phone became silent. Am I not used to it? But I know i will be able to get over it one. Hope you will too.. I would like to thank you for all the thing we been thru. I would like to thanks Si Song and co for being a good companion throughout this few day and thanks for all your help! Lastly, I would like to give special thanks to my whole bunch of collegue in JW NPC. Thanks for all the plans to go out and cheer me on. I know its very hard to take it. I must admit. I'm sad too....... Thats all..

2008-11-10T13:08:00.002+08:00

Feel like thrashing everything out..

I might juz be at the lowest downturn of my life..

I might not be who i am...

I might be giving up everything..

This 2 days I have been reading letters from the past. I felt that I have really wasted many chance, I have hurt so many innocent. All this while all that i had done , was it right or wrong? Am I hurting another girl or does she really felt that I'm good to her. I found out that I lost one very impt letter. I only remember inside it wrote " Do you know what is love? Its not by saying I love you means you really love her.." This letter had been with me for so long and only now than I realise that this letter exist. I just happen to found it one day when I was re-packing my drawer. Its from one of my ex-Gf . I remember that time I broke off with her cuz of the other girl. This incident had made me felt so guilty till now. I learned. I progress. I realized once over everything will be gone in split seconds.

I once had a very good uncle. He teach me how to swim . I will always rmb he is the one who pushes me into the deep water and ask me to swim up myself but i failed and he rescue me. Teaches me how to sing . Teaches me card trick . Use to make fun of me when i was young. Use to bring me out . He doesn't have a good marriage, doesn't have a good life. Even if he's broke, during chinese new year he still make it a point to give everyone Ang Bao. It has been years since he left us. He was caught in an accident while on his way home. Cuz he has been taking on two job at once. Due to fatigue, he drove home on his bike. Could be he fell asleep while driving and went on to mount the curb and cause it to be fatal. Remember the last time was just the day before the accident when i met him. He came to my parents fruit stall, gave a massage chair to my dad as my dad had a fall. He talk to me, asking me how many pull up I can do. He say he will challenge me one day. But now.. I think i got no chance to challenge him anymore. I got many things i feel like telling him. I feel like telling him that i'm doing fine.. I'm serving my NS now.. He used to be very brave and active. He used to stand up for friends. Uncle, I'm wondering where are you? sometime i really hope you will come into my dream and tell me how you had been. I had many things which i might need your advice on. He is only 40 when he pass on. All i hope now is that you are well in heaven. We will never know what might happen tml. You might just lose someone you love , so I will treasure every moment of my life.

We are often most touched by those who show courage and strength beyond their own infirmity. And their death is not an end to that courage.When death takes someone from us, we have to say goodbye. Even if it's only within our own minds.We rarely expect tragedy, and are never really prepared for it.Saying "goodbye" is often another way of saying "I remember."

I will be strong.... I will...

2008-11-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

Was It an End?

3yrs down the road. Our relationship have gone thru so many up and downs. I dunno izzit that we drag on for so long or are we really in it for so long. I used to have faith in this r/s and i also used to lost trust in it. Honestly speaking, i had never betray u nor this r/s before. So how is this road going to be like...

For minor thing, we've quarreled. Ended up minor problem became a major problem which ended up in this current situation. In my job, I used to solve and help other ppl problem and when it come to myself, i felt so helpless . Maybe we had plan so far. 3 yrs seems so near and yet so far. All that I want is just a peaceful r/s whereby we will talk when I'm working and we will be together when i had my off day. I know we had been doing that for the past few months and i really do enjoy it. Maybe I'm really not a good BF. I'm really really very tired to guess the mood of yours, whenever you are in a bad mood i will had to be careful, any small mistake make by me could just cuz you to be angry the whole day. I do had my flaws too. I know I'm lazy whereby I wun always accompany you go where you wan to go . I agree with you that i dun have a good temper too.

Since that time those thing happen(Extra large), you had change which really totally melt my heart. I found out that i had once again love you for the 2nd time. I dun mind you to blame me for always suspecting you this and that. Cuz I'm really afraid to face it again.I really wish that I can share your burden and work, but sometime i really can't help you at all. I feel that in this r/s i have been afraid of this and afraid of that. Of cuz, you had been good to me all along too. I'm very touch whenever you free you will come down to look for me and accompany me. Remember that day when I'm sleeping you hold on to my hand. That feeling, I really can't explain but you gave me a feeling that you never want to let go. I must admit here that what i did to you was wrong. But everything really do have their limit. I felt that i had reached my limit that I turn into such an evil. I'm sorry for that but i really hate to see your evil side appear too.

I wun listen to anyone advice. Cuz i know what I'm doing . Maybe I should just be brave and walk down this lonely street . Suddenly i felt so lost of words. Maybe i shall continue tml. Is this the end of everything..??

2008-11-04T14:45:00.002+08:00

Its Just another day

Days just pass on like that, for the past 3 days i have been spending my time on work and at home playing "Monster Hunter 2" . LoLx. After playing with kensyn they all at my place that night it seems that i'm quite addicted. Trying to change the armor and weapon whole day. However while at home, I have been thinking about my past, many things i just wish that i haven done, I have hurts them... ... ... .. .. .. I know we live in the present, but at time we do walk down our memory lane. I came to realise however long the night, the dawn will break. There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation. Think maybe i just think too much, i'm currently content with what i have , i'm just afraid that one day i might change or even she might change. Look, I never dare to look into the future and i always look to my past. Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion

My mum market will be opening at the 1st of December. Finally there will be income. Time to spend now for renovation and hope that we will earn back when it re-open. JIA YOU!!!

2008-11-01T14:27:00.003+08:00

NEO BIRTHDAY

In fact yesterday was neo birthday but we plan to celebrate today. We went to Bugis for steamboat and i was kinda late so as was Yiming, Jas and Vivi cuz i'm the one who fetch them which means if i'm late than... lolx. So soon after we reached, we met up with derek, neo and ivy. We do catch up alot as it seems like its been quite long since we last met and gather. At least for now derek know that Batok ppl have high IQ except for Yiming. haha. Alright we end the session at around 11pm and plan to go to partyworld at bishan. Ben than came to fetch Ivy and Vivi to there. Upon reaching , we felt that its a waste of money as the partyworld closed at 1am so we decided to chills at the DOME. We all chat there and separated at around 1am. Ivy and Ben went home, Vivi went on to meet her friends. While the rest follows me to my GF house. We went there to play 'hotel626' . Its a game to test your courage and to scare yourself. Derek was scare. In the end we managed to clear all the 5 stages and after that we left at around 3am. I send them all home and i reached home at around 4.10 am. I was pretty tired as i slept till 12pm and still need to work night shift at 6pm but anyway hope neo do enjoy the celebration. We bought a "PICARD" wallet for neo, hope he like the design as i'm the one who choose. Thats about all , hope to gather out again.

2008-07-19T01:02:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday KEn BOoN

Today went to meet ken they all for his birthday. Its was quite fun. Did enjoy myself but due to need to work.. so i went back around 2am , they went back around 4 am . Anyway he seems to have enjoy too. Here to upload some photo. Loads of fun we had . Its an outing that i long miss....

2008-07-18T13:51:00.000+08:00

18/07/08

Today went out in the afternoon to bukit panjang plaza to meet up with manda, should be meet at 4 plus to 5 but when call her up at 4.30 she told me she haven bath yet! lolx.. but in the end i'm the one who came late for the meet up. =X so we went to starbuck and chit chat. We sat there and talk for about 3 hrs. We talk about the past and present, seems like now she's having some trouble with her R/S . She feel that she had been doing badly as a gf and had not shown in much commitment to the r/s . I had been giving her some negative pt of view. But can see that she is quite persistance and would like to go for what she really believe in. Anyway manda think u must start eating more. Know u dun feel like eating but try to eat something light or bland.. After sending her back went straight to meet up with gf as its her birthday.

What we thought was love and happiness? Is now gone all that's left is to move on. Say goodbye and walk away. Take your wounded pride put it aside. The game of love you have lost. Your broken heart is the cost. Count your blessings and pray. maybe You will win at the game of love one day. Just learn when to walk away. Your strong enough to say good bye. Don't hold back it's okay to cry love hurts sometimes.

We went to Kovan 24hr HK cafe with yi xia and zhi sheng. I've order a glass of warm water and it eventually cost 20c ~ After that we went to fish prawn at somewhere around bishan. Its a 2345 thing which means 2 hrs and 3 rods with 4 ppl only caught 5 prawns. haha.. But The birthday girl was very lucky she got her first prawn like in 5 min when i haven even get ready. Now i have learn how to fish prawn. Haha.. my first time.. Hope gf really enjoy herself. HAppy 21st birthday. We head home at around 1 am. Some photos taken.

(The First Prawn)

(Me Concentrating to catch my 1st prawn)

(Xia and Sheng)

(Prawns that we caught after 2 hrs)

2008-07-03T11:29:00.006+08:00

Erm...

First of all the Euro Fever has ended and darn it SPAIN had won the Euro. I had bought Germany before the tournament even started. what a waste.!! As Spain won so this blog will be in their colour to congrats them . Got to accept facts.

For the past few days i have been going out. Saturday(28/06/08) went out with Si Song and co. to marina square, intended to watch movie but was being denied entry as they told us that the ticket that we had earlier book had been sold off as we arrived late. darn! So whats next? We went to the arcade and the few racer get on to their initial D but i suggested that we head to suntec to see whether there's any movie still available so as not to waste the trip here. Alright fine~ its the same and so we went to the arcade again but this time its as suntec. Si song and i tried out the DDR which we used to play in our secondary sch time. Its been years but i think i'm still going fine (erm...) . After that we head back to marina square and had a loads of fun at the HK cafe. And Jebson is in trouble, so we head here and there after our light supper. On Sunday(29/06/08) i went clementi Kbox to meet up with wil , song and zhi wei. Well those kind of feeling is like we had not been together singing for quite a time already ya~ So we went on with our crappy jokes and dances again and there we go again. lolx. Yesterday(02/07/08) met up with GF in the afternoon to help her with her project and meet up Yi Ming and derek for supper. Its quite funny all of us stay in the west but we choose to go till kovan to eat when Neo is not joining us for that. When neo is joining us for supper we will choose area around the west . Don't know what r we thinking too.. Evil thoughts~! lolx. So long nv meet them and the main concern all of us share is our coming ORD IPPT. Hope i can make it through.~ Pray hard for me it will be on the 29/07/08. Still got loads of things to do.. Ciaoz!~

KoOnz

2008-06-03T11:11:00.003+08:00

Disappearing Love

All OR Nothing at all...

Broken hearts are never healed. They haunt us for a lifetime even if we find someone else. Our past teaches us lessons that make us more aware and more human. Why then do we feel so hurt knowing it can only get better? Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together..

I have no regrets in my life. I think that everything happens to you for a reason. The hard times that you go through build character, making you a much stronger person.

From now on I'll be strong ... I'll be ok.. What will happen will eventually happen. So what for keep looking back, maybe life will be even much better.

KoOnz

2008-05-20T12:25:00.003+08:00

Memories...

Its been so long since i last blog. 3 months? perhaps..

Many thing had happen during this 3 months.

Sometimes one word from u might brighten up someone day but sometime one action done by u might just destroy the someone entire day. That is why action speak louder than word.

I'm currently attached to Jurong West NPC and i think i'm still doing quite ok down there. Really start to miss the time i spent with all of them at HTA. lolx. Ask adam to plan an outing but till now there's still no reply from him yet so ..ADAM!!!! o.O" . Got to work again tml! sianz!yawnz..!!!

Relationship-I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new.What is broken is broken- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived. I feel that To love and win is the best thing. To love and lose, the next best. lolx. Post again next time ba..

koOnz

2008-02-14T14:21:00.009+08:00

Goodbye NPC8

It have come to the end of our course. We are going to part again, i had a good time in this squad thanks to all the people around me. Many things will be left in my mind and will be deeply miss. Take care guys! thanks Room 01 for all the fun and laughter! espicially Adam! =D

Well.. today is also the valentine day. my dear bought me a wallet and some cup cakes while i bought her nothing, bad ya? think later better treat her go eat.! haha.. Good day! bye..

Tml starting work.. sianz... scare... haiz

2007-10-27T13:24:00.000+08:00

Derek Look shy From top: DK , NEo , William and Mitsu
Yazid sleeping with kaiwan behind
A A Raizudeen sleeping
NS 33 Cake by our OC !

POP Dinner

Yesterday was our POP Dinner! Soon we will all be separate... haiz

NS 33 u is going to pass out! Thanks SI Desmond for the cake he bought us, he have been a great OC all along. We had our fun and laughter together. Thanks all my squad mates for being there to be so supportive and entertaining all along. this blog is just to post some photos of us!~

So take good care NS33!

haiz... moody.. moody~!

Koonz

2007-10-22T20:05:00.000+08:00

Ass DAy

I got nothing to say.. its just a bad weekend last week..

i scratch my dad car... and something fucking happen..

first time u see my blog got vulgarity...

i WAN TO SAY.. FUCK U XTRA LARGE~!!!!

MAY U GO TO HELL!!....

2007-10-20T11:20:00.000+08:00

POP PARADE TRAINING

For the last week it had been POP parade training all the way.

Everyday seems to be doing the same thing all over again and again which make the day so boring. Yawnz.! Lucky i have Rose ,Mitsu , Derek and yi meng all around me so i wun be that BORED~

next week shall be the last week of our training and soon it will be the day where we separate and pass out! That day shall be a happy cum sad day, after 3 months plus we have all been together, going thru thick and thin , do thing as one and being punish as one.All the fun and laughter, we are going to get separated due to different posting, shall which squad 33 all the best ! Good Luck~~!! You all will be miss~!

Gladly to say i pass my SBT and Law Test . Haha..

Alright as for the pass few week .. all i do was like going to pub, play mahjong , go out and play soccer.

Lazy to write all the things out so just summarize it out! shall post some picture on our POP day next time!

Gonna treasure my weekend.! Bye for now~

KoOnz

2007-09-23T15:20:00.000+08:00

ALIVE!

Finally going to revive my blog~!

After a long 2 months plus, so many things have happen.

Last blog was about the enlistment stuff~

Now i'm all ready for my POP day! That was fast right..

Ok things that has happen during this two month is:

1) My birthday -> a wonderful 21st birthday

2) Pass my class 3 license -> That was very lucky! =>

3) Pass my Range , Swimming , PDT , IPPT , Drill , First Aid and PSOC test already.

Maybe there's more but in the mean time can't rmb le..

Life inside NS is still ok , its not as bad as how we think before we enter, but one thing is that the food sucks! training was still alright except for the law study which is quite stressful.

What i will do mostly during my weekend is to spend time with my Gf and go driving with my bunch of friends. Thats about it la..shall be back again.. I'll miss u all..! Hope to get my pink IC very soon.. miss the world outside whereby u need not hate sunday .=D

What i hate most is those guy who like to take advantage of ppl gf while her bf is serving the NS.

Schedule comings up is:

27th Sept --> scenario base test

5th Oct --> Law Test

5th Oct --> Dekit

30th Oct --> POP

KoOn

2007-07-09T23:16:00.000+08:00

One Last Blog Before Enlistment Day Tml..

well.. tml going in le... quite nervous about it.. haha.. first time must leave home so long.. haiz.. miss my BED..!! Well hope everyone will be safe and sound while i'm not around.. just wanna say i'll miss all of u! my blog will be froze very long le..

take care my friend...

pray hard for me to be safe!

thanks

KoOnz

2007-07-04T12:20:00.000+08:00

6 More days only..

Time flies past so fast till i dun even wish to close my eyes !

6 more days to hand my freedom to the government. 6 more days to become botak . 6 more days to be a real man! I must make use of this last 6 days to enjoy!!

So many of my friends going to NS too ya.. shall wish u all good luck over the 2 long years~!

To Tim : Thought u say wanna meet out before we get enlisted?

To Eric Yam : Dun be a campo inside man.. when sir call for u better dun hide ya! Be a man! lol...

To Farhan : Shall meet u inside!

To Benson and Kiwi : You all must protect the sea well ya!haha.. Good Luck~

To Jebson : Poor you.. your camp is so far from your house.. nvm man.. can go find ur gf~=D

To Yik : Know you sure can't part with your dar.. but dun worry.. she will be waiting for u..

To Wilson : Better dun let you drive the tank ! it will cause danger to singapore.. haha

To Boon Tiong : Work hard inside! Have more confidence in yourself!!

To Kheng Wei : Dunnoe where u r being post to~ but still good luck dude!

To Jasmine : Miss me ya! lol...

Like that count also got 10 friends going in this month~! haha.. Shall meet up one day ok!

Yes Sir, No Sir, Sorry Sir.. Wonder izzit all this that i will be writing in my blog next time.. haha

KoOnz

2007-06-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

Look on the Bright side

In life many things just happen unexpectely, you will never know what is going to happen next ..

Just knew that one of my close friend break up with his girlfriend .. haiz!

after nurturing this love for so long it ended up a way that no one wans it to be.. nothing might be forever . Its very sad to see them separate but what can we do..

No matter whose fault it is, no matter who is at wrong , no matter what happen in the past..

All it matter is now~ if this relationship means alot to you~ dun ever give up but before you try to do anything , try to think what went wrong ~ sometimes we might not know what they are thinking . For example: She cried , it might not be about those thing that happen that day that make her cry, it might be that she feel that u and her r like so different.. like u dun belong to her world anymore~

Love needs lots of understanding ~ Love isn't just about loving and taking , its about giving and caring~

Maybe take this time as an opportunities to think about what you all need the best , what is the best for both parties ,no use crying anymore , can see that u guys still love each other but due to certain circumstances , u all need to choose the hard way~ Think you are mature enough to handle it ~ good luck bro!

haha.. fancy seeing myself writing my friend problems in my blog.. i got my own to handle too... but just wanna share with u my thoughts.

In life, many problems might come at once like relationship,friends and family.. stay strong to overcome it. Its not the end of everything , look on the bright side ~ maybe this might let u become a much stronger and mature person! =D

2007-06-08T22:56:00.000+08:00

Just Upset..

Here i am to post another blog..

Since u've enter poly , our life have change ..

Sometime i might feel we r drifted so far apart..

Sometime i might feel that our love can't stay intact for long..

Since the day you have enter poly , I would had known many things will start to happen. Many things is out of my control . I can see the picture but i can't do anything to help even if i were to oppose -it seems pointless~ I can only hide everything within myself . Its true , i dun know whats poly life is like , i dun know how stress it might lead to. All I can understand is that you have projects , work and many test to worry about. I'm sorry.. i can't do much to help you at all.

At times i just feel so sad , its not i dun trust you , but that feeling is just not right . It never happen to you so u might not know how i feel. I hate to face it !! I hate to hear it!! When the day comes i hate to Know it!!

I just wish to be on that ferrywheel whereby it stop midway and hang me high up. I just dun wish to come down~

Would you still be there for me...

All i hope is just that u will understand why i'm sad over certain things..

I know you also got no choice but just try to understand me.. i dun mean to get angry ..

haiz.. As we grow older , our life have become more and more meaningless..

Just how high is the sky?

KoOnz

2007-05-18T22:37:00.000+08:00

SUCH A LONG TIME

Its been so long since i last blog .... getting lazy..

Wat to say.. Many things have happen..
I graduated from ITe...
My gf went to poly..
I'm waiting for enlistment and i got post to the PA(Police Academy)
My fish died...

Life have been the same, nothing much change . Didn't go out so often and most of the time i'll be rotting at home..
Miss all the moment of laughter and joy in school , how i wish i was allow to enter poly and carry on my education. After serving my Ns , of course i hope to carry on studying but also got to depend on the mood i have during that time. =>
Life have been so dull, i wanted to blog but seems like nothing special to write about too..
As for my relationship , everything is going smoothly. We seems to click quite well now and my life have been much better without all the quarrels and sadness in the past! and so Life goes on..
From now on.. I hope to put in more colour in my life.. so i shall update again!

KoOnz

"FREEDOM" HAHA!!

2007-02-07T15:16:00.000+08:00

So wat is love?? how powerful izzit??
wat u call trust?? wat makes u so powerless??

Wat can i do?? all u say is that u already promise him to go before u even tell me wats going on~
Freedom? When i go out i mostly go out with guys and i will tell u beforehand, whenever i'm meeting girls to go i will sure ask u to tag along. u?? haiz...

why i can't go?? i ask u not to go for my sake u can't..
no matter how sad i am, how hurt i am... wat can u say " i confirm must go de, dun think too much.. ok "
is this all i wan to hear!! wat is this?? is that "birthday" so important to u!~~
is not i dun trust u ~ u make me lost the trust in u...
firstly .. explain y i can't go??
secondly.. u can't explain y u confirm must go even thou how hurt i am now..
Thirdly .. ur mindcept nv even change on not going no matter wat i say or done..

U have shown me how much u care about this relationship...
A person u met one day is so much important than a person u hab been with for one year plus..
haha... love me?? sometime u make me so wonderful being with u .. sometime u make me hate u so much..
now u make me lost all my faith in myself, u, relationship and our trust.
know y i keep talking about this issue cuz from this issue u hab shown me alot of thing..
Love SUCKS!

kOonz

i'm dead...

2006-09-03T20:54:00.000+08:00

Why things have to keep turning out this way~~
quarrels..quarrels.. and quarrel..~

I cannot take it anymore.. no more....no more...
Is our love so fragile?????

Why!!!

Sobx..sobx~~=<

U keep saying i dun understand u.. but do u noe how much do i really care`~~
Just treat that i'm dead!!!
i'm dead...

kOon.

LAst day of Attachment!!

2006-07-08T10:59:00.000+08:00

Finally its the end!!!
Haha ~ No matter wat it is , i have ended my attachment! finally can sleep late , wake up late and enjoy my 2 weeks of holiday!

Today working for me is just like slacking , haha .. boss send me to do some stuff for me because my company driver is on leave so he send me to do all those stuff~ i went out at 1.30pm and came back at 4.40 pm~ almost 3 hr plus.! haha~ But doing those thing is tiring and the stuff to carry is damn heavy~ so i decided to take cab back, luckily can claim~ haha.. When i went back ~ about 10 mins later my boss went out le so i was like slacking down there doing nothing and later in the end we order canadian pizza and had a enjoable ending to our attachment! Sam and me still went to 7-11 to get some vodlka and we just make the last cheers to end our attachment~! Wanna thanks my boss for everything that i've learn there and giving me the opportunity to learn and strive~! Wanna thanks gary too for all the times ~ bringing me to eat , joking with me and sorts.! and of cuz all my friend there..~ thanks alot .. u guys rox!!~

After that went to fetch my dear dear and later went to bishan to have the oyster egg and went home le..

Phiew.. its over..!~

That Was Gary! Thanks for all e time!

Finally , times for some break!

That was Wei hao who always share jokes with me! lol all e best bro!

Trying to Know wat we got to do next~~

KoOnz

Happy BirthDay To Yan LiNg!

2006-07-07T14:59:00.000+08:00

Today is my 2nd last day of work.. so happy! haha after enduring 10 weeks its finally going to be over~ Today was just the same as everyday , go to work,build system>troubleshoot>dismantle and sorts! Time flies real fast today and darn that fadli go and take half day ! lol!!~~ Lucky boss send me to sim lim to take stocks then i went out at 2pm and return by 4.40 pm~! haha.. After returning he ask me to go to ang mo kio to send something and so he gave me an early dismissal and i left at 5.45pm.. So my 2nd last day end here!

After my work i went to bugis to meet my dear dear and friends to celebrate yan ling birthday ~! anyway wishing yan ling a Happy 18th Birthday! We wait at sim lim for everyone to gather before heading towards our destination..i can't remember the name of the shop that we went to but its somewhere around bugis junction , It was like a steamboat buffet~ We got a fun time and everyone seems to be enjoying themself there , we also took some picture there and we left at around 10 plus but only me , jas and jeb left only..~!

Jeb went home straight and Dear and me went to look for cab but we can't hook on to any around there. In the end we decided to take train and she reach home at around 11pm .Thanks god her dad wasn't around and thus she didn't get any scolding! i reach home at around 11.30 and that was about my day! yawnz...

Can't wait to get a piece?

Guess? wat is she doing and wat is that hand behind trying to do???

koOnz

WHY MINE IS SO SMALL!! lol

HapPy Birthday!

Say Cheese!!

World cup fever and an happy outing..~

2006-06-11T14:32:00.000+08:00

yoz.. world cup start le...!!
Let me see .. who shall be the winner.. brazil?argentina? holland?England? or even Japan? haha.
To me i will pick HOLLAND!
Well gonna stay up late at nite to catch those live match le ba but think cannot..lol ( cuz later dear dear will scold =P)

Attachment was fine but getting more and more boring cuz next week will be sam ,adrian and fazihah last week le! after they go only left me fad and wei hao..! so sianz..They so good man , how i wish i was them..~!!

2 more days to my special day.. Tell u guys a secret " shh.. its my first time passing 6 months in a relationship~lol.." well yesterday we take off together and go out together.. from morning go till evening~ go to school --> tampines mall --> century square --> Raffles city --> Causeway Point --> my house..see a long day.. we go shop and shop and shop..!! haha.. had a wonderful time together..! love ya dear.. we took lots of picture together and then to think about it, seems like its been a long time since we had a photo taken together~! She was so cute!!! MuaCks..
Tml off again and at nite my family and my dear and my bro dear will go out and eat together..! and later at 12am .. my dear going to spend her lovely times with me.. that will be our happiest moment..! Think i going to change hp le ba.. my mum gonna pay! my dad gonna support! haha.. love u all mum & dad!! lol!~

Think blog till here ba. anyway i had a wonderful week! hope to be happy with u forever.. Dun ever leave my world!! Love you!

Part 1

Sorry i can't hear.~

Part 2

U wan drinks? no way!

Part 3

Dun make me laugh ! or else i can't finish up quick!

In the End..

Change up and i've Won!! lol

KoOnz

haiz... i can't get to sleep!!

2006-05-31T17:47:00.000+08:00

haiz.. its 2.20am now and i still can't get to sleep .. my mind , my thoughts are all about u~
We got a serious quarrel earlier and i noe u r very mad at me right now.. haiz.. i can sense that u hate me alot.. i wun blame u cuz its my fault.. i'm sorry dear..

Dunnoe y i just can't get to sleep~ i think of alot of things like the first day we had met and the first day of our relationship~ still rmb on the phone when u keep saying " u really got nothing to say le ya?" u keep wanting me to say and i noe so i purposely dun ask.. that was memorable..~ think of all our outing we had and our first kiss. I'm really glad to hab u by my side. I also keep thinking about things that u had said to me be4 ... really miss those good times we had together! Anyway now we had been together for 5 month plus.. going to 6~ though in between we had lots of quarrel , like today..u really let me know the power of love.. i have learn alot thru this relationship.. sometime i really felt very bad to keep making u angry~ Really i can swear.. like right now i noe u r angry and i can't sleep i dun wan to call u cuz u still need to work somemore i scare u dun wan to hear my voice.~ I got no choice but to write down how i feel down here.

dear.. i really treasure u alot de.. i always wan to be a better bf .. really i'm trying my best.. can give me more time to prove~? to think of it.. I really wan to thanks u for always being so true and faithful to me~ Really i sincerely thank u for everything..I really love u alot.. i noe that i cannot live without u so i nv wanna lose u.. =../

The love we had.. must remain strong...
The love we had.. must nv say die...
The love we had.. I promise i'll treasure it till i die...

I'm depressed... I'm sorry dear.. I miss u!
Hope can get some sleep.. haiz.. trust me.. i'll come out strong from this slide we had now and be a better bf!! hold my hand dear.. till we see light which will eventually lead us out..

is there really fairytales?? can i be the prince u r looking for...

kOonZ..
(O.O)
__

Rain Rain Rain...

2006-05-29T05:10:00.000+08:00

Haiz ..
Wait for 6 days then get this off day but it rains, i was in the rain for some time for some reason and later on wanted to join them for soccer but it rains and we got to cancelled the match. Feel so cold now as in about to fall sick man~ must be strong to hold up cuz even if i produce mc i wun get any pay! So tired now..

Right now my dear are still working ,i miss her! today wun be meeting her so sianz man. I noe she sure very sianz one down there , how i wish i can work with her so as to be able to accompany her always. Wan to talk to her also cannot cuz she cannot keep talking on the phone, i feel like meeting her but she say dun wan cuz later she also going home to eat so wat for meet her. I really wan to be with her every min and every seconds.!

Haiz. my hp spoil le, no sound when msg received! feel like changing hp man but no money~ this hp sucks! but inside it got many many things that i dun bear to lose it! see how ba..! haiz..

i miss u right now! Hope u miss me too..! Love u dear~!

KoOnz

My Off Day..

2006-05-23T03:19:00.000+08:00

So today i had taken off as i had decided to accompany my dear to go for her dental appointment~
Today is her last day of her mc and maybe she will be going back to work as soon as tml..
But.. today i'm hoping that the doctor might give her more day to rest as she isn't feeling well at the moment and to say she had not really fully recovered yet..

Yesterday my dear came to my house and we really had fun together.. I really like the time when we are together as during our working days we hardly had any chance to really spend time together..anyway.. she really treasure me as much as i treasure her.. so the feeling is right and our relationship is going very smoothly..I've read her blog.. the last sentence was very touching and i really like it alot.. dear.. me too.. i need u in my life.. i woun let go of u so easily de.. trust me..!

I'm sick too.. but to think she's more sick.. so i had to take care of her and also hope that she will take good care of herself..
As for today , morning was there sitting on the living room accompany my mum watching her favourite korean series..and later afternoon will meet up with her and make our way to the hospital..so thats abt it.. ya~=D Love ya dear.. must recover soon..!

KoOnz

I'm lost..

2006-05-15T11:33:00.000+08:00

Time flies fast..
Maybe wat i thought may not always be wat i get..
I had always trusted fate cuz its him who brought u to me..
We shared trouble and happiness together before..
I truly treasure this relationship alot and i truly appreciate all the things that u've done for me..
This relationship is the only thing that i dun wanna let go..

I made a mistake..
This time i know u r really mad at me..
I felt so lonely..
I felt so dark..
I need u..
Pls dun leave me alone ...
I'm truly sorry ..

I'm really lost ..
Dunnoe whether u will forgive me anot..
I dun ask for much..
Thank you all e while..
Byez... with love
byez..with care
i'm gone..

KoOn...............
my soul is deAd... my spirit has gone... but u will nv dissapear from where u once were..i'm sorry

hApPy 5tH aNnIvErSaRy!!!

2006-05-12T15:00:00.000+08:00

So 2nd blog of the day.. lol

Piggy!! HapPy 5th Month Anniversary!!~~
Its fast and its another month past again.. we've been together for 5 months now..~

Many things have happen throughout and we had so much quarrel.. thou in my last blog during our 4th month anniversary, i promise that there will be no more quarrel and sorts.. sorry i've fail.. but i promise i'll not give up and continue to work hard and prevent any more quarrel.!

Through this month we had lots and lots and quarrel which almost ended up in breaking off..
but we made it through again and now we r still standing strong..

My wish for this month is that u will keep standing strong and dun u ever give up on our relationship..! Love u!

No matter wat happen lets all throw away the bad memories and dun let anyone break this relationship ok.. cuz we usually have lots of misunderstanding ~ In this world of mine, u r the one and only i want.. thanks for the biscuit and jelly u've made for me, u really gave me a surprise cuz i didn't and nv ever thought that u would do this thing for me.. sorry that i misunderstood u the other day when u r doing this for me.. MuAckS!~

So dear dear.. lets hold hand to hand and walk down this wonderful road together.. nv ever let go of me cuz i may fell very very far away..Thanks for everything that u've done and said.. Love u..

( kOoN & JaS 120506)
PigPig Luv Piggy

KoOnz

My attachment day..

2006-05-12T13:24:00.000+08:00

I think its been a long time since i post a blog man..
So today think i gonna write about my attachment days.. i'm being attach to Kembangan Plaza!!
my dear dear is being attach to Sim Lim Square... How i hope to be with her.. no luck ba..
At first thought that kaoz.. wat kind of place is this but now after working 1 week plus, i felt that the ppl there is fun and its not that "tough" working there too..my boss also not bad but as for my dear dear, she's not that lucky~ haiz..
When she work on public holiday she dun get any compensation ~ somemore she need to keep standing there whole day.. Poor her , lucky we still can meet after work..
So i meet her by always sending her to work and fetching her back.. then when off day i will go find her or when she off she will come find me..

Everytime i work i felt so bored, thats y i always need her company..
She will msg me when she is free but i still kinda miss her alot..
Dunnoe why since the day i start work has been kept dreaming about her.. lol..
I miss u!!!

When i go sim lim i saw many friends down there..~some work happily some dun..
I visit many ppl there like naser, wilson, yan ling, kiwi, jin xiang, hui ling and so on..
good to see them going fine.. i also saw timothy , well he's still that young and handsome.. haha..
Anyway Naser cheer up!! things will be fine.. there's always a better one behind..! all e best..!

okie should end here ba.. Now then i know i miss school so much..~ hope to get back soon~~!
So Good luck everyone.. all the best in ur work!~~

KoOnz

hApPy 4tH aNnIvErSaRy!!!

2006-04-13T03:50:00.000+08:00

So after a long road down my life, today comes another special day in my life and that is to spend the 4th month relationship together with u my dear!
Though we still got a very long road ahead but i do treasure our presents days and times!

In the past, my life was so boring and dull .
Its u who bring colour into my life~
Thanks my dear for always showering ur love ,care and concerns towards me!
Although we had some quarrel in the past 4 month ~but its all over now cuz everthing gonna start anew from today~ our life will be much happier and lively! this i promise u!

No matter how many obstacle is in the way, i'll make sure that it will be gone in no time. I'll nv let anyone spoil our this lovely relationship ~ =D

Dear , on this special occasion i would like to tell u that " U're the best partner in my life, u make my life so wonderful and lively!! I just Love u till i dun even know wats gonna happen to me!haha"

Dun make me so worried for u okie!
Dun forget all ur promises u had made as i take it very seriously~!
How much i miss u now dear!
Okie cya later! muAcks~!

KoOnz

My Dear Drawing..~

Our 4th Month Meal..~!!

just Another Tuesday..

2006-04-05T14:13:00.000+08:00

Well its just like everyday , wake up then eat and sleep again..

Today my dear come my house find me!<> =D
Well actually wanna meet her at clementi but i was abit too late so no choice got to meet her at bukit batok~ when i went down to the bus-stop, my bus 106 just got off and when i look to the opposite of my bus stop , the bus to clementi came! Darn! how unlucky am i~ Thought that i'm going to be late for sure but thanks god abt 10 min later no.77 came and so i got on ~ when i reach the bukit batok control station i still got the time to visit the toilet first before she came. So i was not late ~haha~ but in the end i still got wrong cuz i didn't make it to meet her at clementi.~ So wats my punishment? i treat her a peanut waffle~! well anyway she wasn't angry at all is just that i feel like eating then i ask her if she want some then we bought de~

After that head straight to my house, we had our lunch at my house and later on this two pig went to take a short nap but as it was really very hot, i can't really get to sleep so to me it was really a very "short" nap! After that we dun hab much thing to do too so we took out the "monopoly" and start our game there.~ Guess who is the winner? of cuz its me la.~! i won her twice and during the second time, i almost lost but due to my nv say die spirit , i turn the whole game around and gain a victory~! haha ~ this game is quite fun to me cuz its like a moment of refreshing the childhood days.

Well...later after our dinner and at around 10pm she went home . Kinda miss her as i felt that timeflies real fast ya~ so fast another day has been past ~hope to see u soon dear!~ Love ya~!

!!~Countdown to 8 days ~!!

kOOnz

Finally..

2006-04-02T03:49:00.000+08:00

So finally end all the projects , exams , stress and the need to stare at the books! haha..

The exam looks easy but when results comes out it might look differently~
Just after exam i got on to this temp job at "hoya" doing all those admin work, i can say quite like it as i like the atmosphere there like i got to get my own desk and PC and the collegue there is very friendly. The bad part is that i got to keep staring at the monitor and got loads of files for me to key in, it could be so tiring and sleepy~ the worst part is i left my dear at home alone so boring~ sorry but trust me, it's gonna end soon then u expected! To choose between money and u i have choosen u!

When i heard that u fall sick , i can't concentrate on my work at all, i just hope to see u immediately!
When u can't get to sleep , i'm so worried sick abt how r u?
So can u promise me to take good care of urself when i'm not around!
ok?

Yesterday went out to meet my dear for dinner after my work at to shui (opp Great world City)
The feeling was like as if we had not met for a very long time, just dunnoe why. When i was working , i kept looking at the time wishing it to flies faster as i can get to meet her~ haha~
We ate alot of thing as two thin people went in and comes out as two fatty pig! btw the food there was nice and cheap (trust me!) so after the dinner we went for a stroll at great world city and after that went back to bishan and she went home at 9pm~

A happy outing indeed , just can't get my mind off u!
Thanks dear..

Anyway wishing boon Tiong a happy birthday!
sorry that i can't make it cuz i work till quite late then u all start quite early then i think reach there also very late le so i nv go. Anyway wish that u had ur fun out there and may u hab a wonderful 20th birthday! stay cool and funky dude!

KoOnz

4 days to go

2006-03-24T14:20:00.000+08:00

Dun know what to post too but getting real stress as exam drew nearer..
Currently feel like i'm in the holiday mood, got no mood to study at all!~
Recently had some fight with my dear but everything is ok and fine now.. Thank dear~!
lets study together and work hard for this exam ba!

Really wish to end the exam soon..
Gonna go revised again..
wait till exam finish then think i shall post again ba..
Haiz.. after project there's still exam..
Good luck everyone!~
Goodbye for now...

kOonZ

stress...

2006-03-13T13:42:00.000+08:00

So this got to be my new blog...
14.03.05

I'm so tired today!! yesterday didn't really sleep well and got to wake up so early today~yawnZzZ O.-
Anyway i skip the first lesson today in order to get more sleep and of cuz i drag my dear dear along~=P .So as usual i meet her at city hall at around 8.45am and this time round no one was late and so we reach school at around 9.25am. 5 mins before the lesson gonna starts and yet not even a single soul is around so we sat outside the class to wait.Meanwhile my dear took out some breads which she had made for me and that becomes our breakfast~ i would like to say thanks alot dear~ its really good and as this is ur first time making things for me to eat, i really appreciate it.MuaCks~
After finishing everything we went in to the class at around 9.40am and start doing our project~ this is where all the trouble start, errors keep coming out and we keep just keep on editing and u guess how long we use just to edit.~ 3 long hours!! The most interesting part is within the 3 hours we just got started and there's still a long way to go~! after this still got the OS project!! Stress..~~!

So after that we went for networking for some revision and went home after that. Thats about how i spent my day ~

Finally i would like to say " sorry dear for making u so tired today and thanks for ur breakfast!love ya!"

KoOnz